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the website is done! for now!!

huzzah! the first version of my personal site is now complete. i made this website instead of reading the book i have to read for summer homework. do i regret it? uhh

well anyway! im vowing to myself that i will NOT start or continue any other projects until ive finished said homework. my school year starts early so i need to HURRY. i love reading but my brain for some reason hates doing things when i Have to do them. why???

but i didnt make this first blog post to complain about my homework. umm what was i gonna say. o yea!! u can literally make ur own website!! it's super easy*!!! i mostly just followed sadgrl's guides and then took scripts from other places when exploring other websites, like here and here, among other sites (i forgor). to figure out the layout and how to make things look the way i wanted, i just referenced the source code other sites i thought were cool. and the stamps, blinkies, and buttons r taken from other peoples' stamps/etc hoards from all over neocities and spacehey, and a couple found on deviantart and tumblr i think. i linked back to the original creators of any ones that weren't from others' hoards. someday (after i finish that homework) i should make stamps/etc of my really specific interests, like silent films and roblox games and stuff.

probably (HOPEFULLY. I NEED TO DO MY HOMEWORK.) wont update this blog for a while. if u wanna see whats in my brain at any given moment then follow me on tumblr where i reblog beautiful fanart of random shit every day yeaahh!!! ok peace

*unless u want to do slightly harder things like container borders and dark mode (two things ive failed to implement). but we're all learning here.

july 9th, 2024 -- 3:09PM

ANOTHER BLOG POST (rambling)

i did not mean to not update this for a year but thats how it happened. the school year that happened between the entry up there and now was another of the same ol same ol........... but starting a month ago i have to start thinking about applying for a college. and i am scared! these last years since after i graduated from my middle school have been filled with nothingness, nothing created except for a few things here and there like one translation on tumblr orrr a small handful of vocasubs on my youtube channel plus a video about mafumafu. but every day for the past few years all i think about is wanting to write, wanting to draw, wanting to make a video, wanting to create... but i dont end up making anything. im somehow a professional at this and i dont know how to stop or what im doing to not-do! gah

but i swear im not just procrastinating or being lazy. recently, as of a few days ago, i started drawing little things. cartoony things because cartoony shapes are easier to draw, but im planning on checking out a how-to-draw book at the library when i can go next week.

also, thinking of lifestyle changes, one of the most major things to happen to me in my life happened early this june. it's so big that i can honestly call this a dividing line between one era of my life and the next. the thing that happened was: i stopped being a picky eater.

i was ashamed of it for my whole life, avoiding places where other students would eat at school so i could eat alone, avoiding restaurants, always looking out the window when i had to eat with my family, but part of that was also because i hated looking at food. im neurotypical as far as i know, but i think what it was was that i had a built-up fear of food, its sight and its smells. food wasnt food to me, it was something weird and alien and sacred, not just something you put in your mouth for nutrients. it was like a different type of object. anyway early this june i closed my eyes and stifled my thoughts and bit into some fried zucchini and it DIDNT make me want to spit it out and so i just kept on going and now im cured.

this is rambling now but this is the hugest thing thats ever happened to me and im the most happy about it ever. for my whole life i was ashamed of it, and now i dont have that thing to be ashamed of anymore. i have one less thing to alienate me from the rest of the human race, too, though with others trying new foods so many people have been calling me an alien for the way i dont know how to dig in to things with my utensils or my reactions to eating it, and thats exactly accurate. i am literally trying human food for the first time.

so far here are my favorite things ive eaten:

• 1. chocolate cake. ive had chocolate cake in the past but i havent had anything to top this one yet. if i could marry a chocolate cake i would do it
• 2. pizza. cheese pizza was my favorite pre-picky eating and ive had many new kinds of pizzas since but just good greasy cheese pizza is still my fav. after chocolate cake
• 3. rice. this is a classic. any kind of rice but i suppose i eat plain white rice the most often. it's versatile, it's iconic, it's the best. we all know
• 4. moussaka. the first time i had this i struggled to figure out how to eat it and so i just ate a piece of eggplant by itself and i was like this is disgusting. but then when i put the whole chunk in my mouth... it's like magic. witchcraft. wizardry. HOW?! you make a delicious yummy dessert out of that disgusting vile thing HOW. cooking is witchcraft
• 5. spanakopita/spanakotoripita/whatever you wanna call it. this is like moussaka again. i thought spinach was gonna be disgusting but now i think i can be as strong as popeye the sailor man if i eat this delicacy all day... it is so delicious. some people i was with were with me when i ate this and the only other person who got it from the buffet we were getting our food from was the other greek guy. all those non greek people, they are missing out so much because they arent taking their chances on the spinach squares. this thing is delicious. i need to stop talking about it next one ok
• 6. a chicken. not chicken. a chicken. a bird. cooked. not fried. yummy af. i love when foods have chicken in them. chickennn
• 7. pesto pasta. one of the most delicious meals ive ever had in my life the first time i ate it and then the second time i had an allergic reaction and found out i was allergic to the pesto sauce because it has nuts in it so unfortunately i can never have this again lmao. but now i know im allergic to the nuts in pesto

okay let me stop ranting about the best things thats ever happened to me and let me talk about this website. i cannot figure out how to make it fit on a mobile screen. i screwed up the formatting so it looked stupid on even a computer screen and it was too much effort to get it back so im never trying that again, even though i have what i assume is a very simple website layout.

what else...? i havent played deltarune yet i'll probably get to it in about maybe like. a few years. which is okay with me but it's driving my deltarune-experienced friends crazy

lets hope we can all create cool things. im gonna try my best to make this video about vocaloid happen, and then after that hopefully i can write and draw and try making music and be joyous forever, and be college educated gosh im so nervous about that

july 25th, 2025 -- 4:33PM

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